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Tuesday, July 17, 2007

was feeling kinda restless so i'm here to update my post.
as usual, nothing much happened today. was punctual for school and lesson ended at 5pm. was rather bored and restless in school as well. aftermath, reached home around six thirty. i dont know why i'm so shag to touch on my tourism CAs which is on wed. there's lots to memorise and i'm not well prepared. tml will be the last night for me to burn midnight oil. arghs. god bless.
i've changed my blog song to my valentine.
to hui juan: i wont suffer from depression. i will move on each day as i know you guys will be there for me always. =)

restless her.

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Monday, July 16, 2007

firstly i know it had been a long time since i last updated. my apology for that alright. (: somehow rather i'm gonna shorten and sum up what had been going on for the past few weeks.well.
school had re-opened one week already. time flies is another new term again. i'm glad to return back to school to catch up with my group of fellow friends. however, the ironic thing is that there's lots of upcoming test for preparation. arghs! definitely is driving me mad. through the three weeks of holiday, honestly i've practically forgotten part of the work. =p this week had just taken one of the paper - costing. hopefully i'm able to pass through. after the paper, i realise there're quite a number of mistakes. no point pondering it, is over ya. (:
speaking of which, i just remembered i still have my tourism project still hanging in the air. arghs. hopefully everything move on smoothly.
alright as regard on my three weeks holiday. i'm been busy with work thus seldom have the opportunity to online and catch up with friends. but i'm glad for those who do remember me. (: though it had been extremely tiring for me, i believed is worth it. there's plenty of memories left behind. all these are deeply remembered in my brain cells. oh ya! there's still some idiotic people who pissed me off at work. well. i couldnt be bothered with such person. since they dont respect others, why shall we respect them? simply just strengthen your maturity can. firstly, i had gotten my new hand-set. followed by the person who make me smile. it all happened with miracle and i believed is fate that bring us closer. in addition i do miss the times spending together and the laughter with my fellow colleague. i appreciate it. as school had started, i'm giving myself sufficient rest therefore for the time being i'm not returning back to work. you guys might miss me so? =p

the river runs and the river hides out to the ocean and hides the sky.

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Thursday, July 5, 2007

well for both days i've been working thus i'm MIA again. basically this two days have been rather a slacking day for me. there isnt any much event thus i'm not tired.this week i could only work few days due to some reasons. wedding dinner and sufficient rest for a fresh back to school next week. nevertheless, hopefully things move on fine ahead for me. this few nights despite being tired i couldnt turn in until late midnight. am i suffer from insomnia again or due to being stress up. sigh~
as usual today took cab to work as i'm in 11am shift. i conclude that today was the first time i'm feeling bored to death at work. there isnt anything for me to do after i done with my lunch event. i've been strolling up and down the level chatting and disturbing other friends. =x pardon me for being retarded. i believed you guys felt the same feelings as me. thus, i was being signed off at 4pm. aftermath, went across the road to help the rest to buy 4D. poor ruiwen and me got to carry lots of number and money with us. headed back to hoteland get prepared before heading down to town. i need shopping! but sad to say the time was getting late, ended up i could only purchase one sandal. i'm craving for m)phosis sandal and stuff can! i doubt i gonna get it tml after work. humph. we went to chill at coffee bean and headed home.
hereby i received a message from one of my longest friendship friend when i reached home. well, i dont think there isnt a need to mention the name. (: i'm disappointed upon reading the things she had written. saying that i had forgotten her due to never contacting one another. i'm glad she do notice it. i do see her around and i had put the effort totalk to her, treating nothing happened but it seems i'm a stranger to her. putting herself in my shoe, how would she feel? such a long friendship would ended up like that due to _ well, am i such a person? though i never voice out my feeling upon her, it doesnt mean i dont bother. i'm just totally speechless and disappointed. knowing that she's attached with bf, i could understand that perhaps why she doesnt contact me. i'm used to it and i doesnt push any fault on anyone. what are the definition of friends? thinking back i could only say there're not much people i could put my trust on. pardon me for saying this, perhaps i'm already lost in trusting anybody. hopefully one day she will realise it. i could be just a distance away when she need me. all it need are just two hand to clap. i've done my part, have she? am i in the wrong? who can tell me?! zz.
a good friend laughs at your worst jokes, put up with your worst moods, gets along with your worst ideas, and always sees the best in you. nothing else. Real friendship is shown in times of trouble.
i often hide my emotions behind a mask which denies the inner feelings. i'm vulnerable and easily being hurt. people around might see me always putting a smile on my face, but only those who understand me knew the inner part of me. i appreciate it. thanks. am i always living in the life of lies trying to be a carefree girl? god bless.

the mysterious of life.

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Tuesday, July 3, 2007

aloha. i know it's been a long time since i've updated. well, feeling rather random now. but still i gonna blog since i'm free. for the whole of lastweek i've been working non-stop without any off day. it's pretty tiring. lack of sleep and lack of free time for me to relax as well. it kept me busy and avoiding those unpleasant stuff to curl around me. (:
just a brief summarize on last week schedule. everything move on smoothly. just that on certain day at work i'm pissed off with the partner i'm being assigned to. well i'm not being fierce or sarcastic, i think they're just stubborn to obey on instructions. nobody born to be perfect in knowing everything. for those who know me well, will know my character. you treat me good i will treat you good, otherwise pay the price for it.
been sometimes since i chatted with him till wed when i was on the way home in cab with my friends and i drop by his block. thus i drop him a msg and i was somehow rather shock with his respond. i doubt i should treat it normal. it was a miracle that i went to meet him afterwork on last friday. took train down with ben as we are heading on the same track so i headed down to sengkang. met up with xiaodi as he's going home from outside. coincidence either. thanks for bringing me over to the block and flag for cab.
last night end work early thus we decided to go for a drink at QP pool bar at boat quay. so concidence when alighted the cab saw xiaohui jie. aftermath, joined them a while. went over to other pub to drink. got to know few people introduce by her and saw few friends. the world is just so small. another one got number from me after chatting a lot of ' rubbish ' for so long. hmm i will make my decision carefully. thanks for your compliment too. reached home around 7 in the morning. ((:
a good news is that i gonna change a new hand set soon. winks~ i've decide to set some times aside this week for me to do window shopping but do i've the time? thinking through, i doubt i left with no much time. school would be opening next monday which is in one week time. guess what? i'm very eager to return back to school. arghs. despite of the projects,assignments and projects have not touch on yet. =p
to ben : lol. i'm not so bad okay. dont judge a book by its cover. lol. hmm, anyway cheer up as time heal the wound. like what you told me one day i will get what i wish. same goes to you. (:
as mentioned i'm feeling rather random now. well, who's never been down before? tired of donning a thousand masks. there's certain matters which are not meant to evaded any further as the outcome mostly would be still the same. by staying oblivious at times, i knew i still got to face the complicated path and couldnt get apart from it. question could just haunt me when i rest my mind upon it. i'm addicted to the song part of a fool. it describe exactly how i feel throughout.

secret garden*
<3 XIAOHUI

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