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Friday, March 28, 2008

have been feeling down these few days. things dont seem to be moving on smoothly? or perhaps i am just thinking too much? i just couldnt express myself.

tuesday went to BBDC with rui wen, michelle and regina to enroll for BTT car liscense. waited for more than three hours before our turn. zzz. afterwhich headed down to town met up with the rest and went to forum for singing. as we reached there around 9pm thus we ended up going home taking cab. its fun having them around except for my scb who couldnt make it as she got work. somehow rather my emotion went up and down in between.

wedesday attend work. its a SHIT one afterall. but still because of money i got to endure. i am lucky that i dont have OT ya. went home at 11pm with xueli and hui lan. on the way home in the train, i suddenly feel like weeping. sigh. but still i control it. what i could say is that i miss him.

lastly, today headed bugis with xueli, chai lee and one of their friend. shopping! it seems i have a long list of items to buy. i gonna save up the money for purchasing all these. i purchased a GUESS wallet today. i love it. simple and easy design. headed back to hotel to collect money but sad to say i forgotten to bring my voucher along. zzz. chatted with friends and went home afterwhich. its tired but its better than staying at home randomly thinking of stuff.

i'm looking forward to tomorrow. (:
your text make me smile today.
three words and eight letter words ;
i love you.

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Tuesday, March 25, 2008

today is my off day thus i am staying at home the whole day. been dreaming ever since i awake in the afternoon. today is monday, should i call it as monday blue? i am feeling down the whole of today. am i thinking too much? i couldnt resist myself. perhaps i am having mood swing. i prefer working though it is tiring, it would keep myself occupy. i would rather tired until dead than emo until negative thoughts came upon my mind. sigh.

managing my emotions is an inside job. nothing would cure me other than that. not mentioning it here. he/you should know. i dislike being alone cause i knew i wont be reacting normal. the feelings is just horrible. if only he could just be text away, i would be fine. teach me how to smile, will you? what exactly i am feeling now? i dont know. its just totally uncomfortable. or perhaps i need some pills please.

to guide me through my path, its not an easy task.
i miss you.

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Sunday, March 23, 2008

its never an easy one for me,
life still goes on.
i miss you endlessly.

this would be a random entry as i am not in the right mood now. perhaps due to one word, BORED which causes the outcome. in addition, i am also down with bad cough, sore throat and flu. zzz. its making me utterly uncomfortable. sigh.

yesterday went over to his place after work as today i do not need to attend work. another rest day for me though. perhaps i am used to working almost everyday thus i am not used staying at home just like today. its making me mad. my mood just turn me down afterall. all because i start to reminisce things again. sigh. tomorrow will be better? i doubt so.

sorry for the whine here and there asking you to entertain me when you also feeling bored. forgive me ya? just a simple and short words to you, i miss you. turn in early too. with you being there for me, i know i fear nothing.

as i mentioned this would be a random entry, thus i am ending it here. i will blog more tomorrow or the day after tomorrow. takecare all folks.

afterall, you are still the special one in my heart.

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Wednesday, March 19, 2008

sorry for the lack of updates. these few weeks had been a really hectic weeks for me. and thus this post will be a long ones. enjoy reading for those who are willing, for those who are not, you can kindly leave. i appreciate for those who are willing to read down the post. exams had finally over and i had already graduated. time passedr eally fast isnt it? i am turning 20s this year. oh dear. i miss my teenage life and definitely my schooling life. schooling life is better than working life afterall. for the moment, i will be working. as usual back to banquet in hotel. i dont intend to search for temp full time job for the moment, as i will be intending to further my studies to get my private diploma and thereafter. life wont be an easy one for me afterall. i got to save up money to cope up with my own living too and also on other expenses as well.

as mentioned exams had already over. result will be out on the 2nd of april and posting to poly on the 7th of april and the start of poly life will be on the 14th of april. hopefully i would pass all my modules and attend the graduation ceremony successfully. for my friends who are going to poly, i hope you guys would get in the course you all have the interest in. all the best to reach for your dreams and goals.

last wednesday mark the day of my graduation. time flies, two years of ITE life had offically came to the end. thinking back the time i entered ITE, i met up with lots of friends. somehow they graduated one year earlier than me. and also i got to make new friends over in SIMEI ITE, especially in QD and QS. well, throughout the two years, i could say the journey is both mixed with ups and downs feelings. be it ups or downs, i got to thanks for all the memories we gone through. sometimes, its still the downs that pull us stronger ya? the memories i have encountered in simei ite will lies in my head. i miss every single moment we spent together. be it disturbing teachers or other people, rude or mischevious, the childish acts in us and everything, its still the memories that worth leaving behind for us. now, it will be another new path of life we going through again, i bless all my friends all the best down the road you guys going through and keep in contact always. everyone will be remembered, (: and not forgetting all the lecturers who had taught us throughout the two years, thanks for the guidance, courage, nagging and tolerating in us. without you all, we wouldnt have today. (: each and every momentwe gone through in simei ite will be a deep memories for us. thus, we will be looking forward for our graduation ceremony. god bless everyone.

working life for me had been a hectic one but i still enjoyed working over there. the fun and laughter i had with all my friends. despite being tired, there is still times we do stupid things together. especially with my scb`xueli. its my pleasure working over there. especially for those who are close with me, thanks for your advice and care all along ya. i apppreciate it a lot.

and i gonna turn in after blogging. i am down with bad flu and headache. tomorrow i am still need to go work. arghs. hopefully i will recover after my beauty sleep later on. diet on the way. i gonna aim for my target. determination!

this month o9o3o8 was our half year together if we never parted. nevertheless i will never forgotten the day. it will always be remembered and i miss the date and you a lot. and also thanks for looking after me last friday. sorry to let you have a hard time ya. oops. not to mention more on that. thats our secret. you will always be indispenable to me. only you gave me the reason to smile. i love you; baby.

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Sunday, March 9, 2008

you often meet your destiny on the road you have taken to avoid it.

i knew i am not suppose to be here blogging. while i should be mugging for my coming paper next monday and wednesday. days is coming nearer and nearer. i am getting nervous. one word to describe my mood to exam, STRESS!

just a random post for this ;

i am feeling down at the moment i am blogging now. why? i start to reminisce about the past. sigh. i miss you, my ' baby ` ivan ' . i will never forget you as you are once; part of my life so does now. picture of you reminds me of the days when we are so sweet together but it can never hold me close and kiss away each tear. somehow rather, i hope you are missing me too, will you? sigh. will i know the answer? or i will never know the answer. i love you still.
and WHERE are you? =\

i miss you, ivan.

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Saturday, March 8, 2008

you often meet your destiny on the road you have taken to avoid it.

i knew i am not suppose to be here blogging. while i should be mugging for my coming paper next monday and wednesday. days is coming nearer and nearer.i am getting nervous. one word to describe my mood to exam, STRESS!

just a random post for this ;

i am feeling down at the moment i am blogging now. i start to reminisce about the past. sigh. i miss you my ' baby ` ivan ' >.<>

i miss you badly.

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Thursday, March 6, 2008

pampered me, will you?

getting online in msn for long seems to be once in a blue moon thing for me now. my schedule was really tied up. be it with work or school. the days to my final exam is pretty short. it is less than five days. oh dear. i reconked, i should work triple hard now. as this is the last lap, i shall never give up and get it done with.motivate me anyone to strive on harder ?

so much going on in my head and yet i am unable to verbalise the thoughts and feelings. sometimes i just pretend everything is fine, but why am i lying to myself? it arent make me feel any much better either. sigh. as this is the crucial period now, i should pay my attention more on exam than anything else.but instead, things just rambling around in my head. still i got to face it.

i still remember vividly in my mind. with just a little while on the phone call, i am satisfied. you just make my day. please take care of yourself always. i love you still. i miss 090907. =\

life is NEVER fair. and it will never be. thus there will always be disappointment for me.

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Monday, March 3, 2008

beyond the imperfections ;

i have neglected my blog for three weeks. have been very busy recently. returning back to work and preparation for exams. i am having insufficient rest as well as my beauty sleep nowadays. i am just torturing myself. seriously i dont wish to. sigh.

i could say time really flies. in less than two weeks time i am going to graduate from simei ite soon. what will be my plan ahead?
for the following week, i believe that it will be a hectic one for me. i will be mugging for my upcoming final exam which is on the 10th and 12th of march. how well have i prepared for it? am i confident enough for the papers? seriously my answer is NO. as i have not really settled down and start mugging. it seems a lot of things have been rambling about in my mind. work. exams. personal stuff. hopefully it would be a smooth one ahead? there is lots of revision papers for me to practise on. i gonna do everything, good luck to me, everyone? thus, all the best for all of you who are in the mid of your revision too.

whereas for work, everything is fine. i enjoy the days over there despite of the lack of sleep and being tired and shag on the following days. i have all my friends there and also the ones who are closer to me. you are just precious to me, (: spending with those who are closer to me, make me feel that time pass really fast, can there be no full stop? next week i will not be as regular due to preparation for exams. i do miss everyone.

it had been a long time since i last saw him until last friday. though its just few hours, i appreciate it. you are indispenable though. loves!

i hide behind the mask;
the mark as a shield to look at what;
others can never see.

and there is absolutely nothing wrong in being imperfect. what matter most is your heart, it goes beyond everything.

the feeling of missing someone is terrible. and i miss you so.

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