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Thursday, August 7, 2008

just a simple post over here. i am still kicking alive though i have not updated my post for few weeks. this week have been quite a quiet week. due to the chinese 7th month, thus there is lesser event going on in the hotel. i manage to work ony for two days. pathetic. i am so bored rotting at home. next week will be calvin and me last week being regular staff in gcw. i will not be back often. he will be entering NS in one months time. i will cherish all the days i have. shall update more on this next week.

last friday went to catch movie, ' money not enough 2 ' with friends. afterwhich, headed for singing session with the hotel people. its fun hanging out with them. tuesday went to banquet chalet held at coasta sand sentosa. well, though its a very small chalet just like hut, but still we find things to occupy ourselves from the boredom. afterall, there is always memories left behind.

what is life? what is love? everything is just so complicating. yes i do agree life is precious but on the other hand i could say its fragile as well. for this few months, i heard a lot of fatal accident. though they are not my friends. but upon hearing those news, i felt pity for it. somehow rather i agree that nothing is forever. only death is forever. once its gone, it will be gone forever. we should cherish what we have. be it good or bad. cause those are all memories. we never know what will happen during the next hour. things happen too unpredictable.

i may be here typing happily but i might be gone the next hour. nobody knows. am i true to say, ' people wont realise how a person is important or precious to them until they are gone' ?
to regret it will be too late cause the person wont exit anymore.

all this while, i have always been pretending to make myself look happier. its just so hard. so hurt afterall. you have never ignore me ever since we know each other, even after being apart we still text and keep in contact. until 17/7/o8 till 21/7/o8. this four days you never reply my text. not even once. the last msg i received on 17/7/o8 4:33pm. all these days i have been feeling miserable. what is wrong? to reflect myself, what i have done wrong. why are you ignoring me? i sent out several text to you to apologise if i am wrong. but i dint get any response back until 22/7/o8 12:36am. i knew i am being naive. i still think of you during these four days when you are ignoring me all because i care. i am really disappointed cause i never knew that you will ignore me. you once promise me you will not ignore me despite of what. sigh. i hope this wont happen again. though there is bits of misunderstanding out there due to me thinking too much, everything just end it with a full stop.

i am glad that i am able to throw out all my feelings over here. if one day i would just apart just out of sudden, *touch wood* at least there is still memories of me. and people who are close to me know what i have been going through. thus i woudnt bottle up everything in my brain.

sometimes i hope you are around looking at my blog. cause i dont have the courage to say it out verbally anymore. no matter what you will be someone special to me once before and always.

you will always be a part of me;
but i am part of you indefinitely.
* ivan.

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