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Saturday, May 2, 2009

i had entered a world of questions
answers to be sought and found
inside my heart was all chaos
and the fear within me

i am back after disappearing for two weeks. finally this critical EXAM period is over. i do not know what the outcome would be like. no matter what i knew that i already put in my best and effort in revising throughout the night. good luck to me and my friends.

i admit this two weeks are full with mixture of feelings. be it stress, lost, mentally breakdown, tired and the unhappiness in me. and i told myself during that critical period not to let the stress in me to affect me from focusing so i tried not to think. finally now exam is over and thus i am down with one stress. but not the rest. sigh.

i am sorry to ade gal. siyuan and edward. for the incident that happened. i am sorry to let you all worried. thanks for being by my side and encouraging me to look on the better side and focus on exam and putting the thing aside until exam had ended. sorry marmie for worrying and bringing me to the clinic. and ade gal's cousin who came to visit me during that period. thanks all those who care. i had already recovered from it and the actions will never be forgotten.
and p.s ; i never regret what i had done.

after so long, tomorrow i will be returning back to work. i am having one week holiday. perhaps its time for me to disappear and get tied down with work so as i will get myself tired and do some planning. i need money. there is so much things i want to do. despite of my busy schedule ahead, i will still pick up some of my time to update the blog. i am glad that there is still two friend who tagged and awaiting for my post. i appreciate. for those who did pass by, do leave a tag behind and let me know. there is so much things that happen for this two month.i doubt this year will be a good year for me. everything happen on me are just unlucky. it makes me come to the conclusion of having no confidence in myself. i guess i should just pretend and move on with my daily life ahead. i am really lost in everything.

why does everyday seems so long and dreadful? i learnt that pain is a lonely thing. its impossible to understand one's pain. there is so many things in me that i wanted to say. but i just couldnt. i really dont know why. i could only just put it all in my mind. i dont know who to turn to. i dont know who to trust. i do not know how to describe my thoughts. but i could remember everything vivdly. nevertheless, i miss you, zjse*

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